Particles In Time

smoking in the cold behind my house at night
staring in the lone street light
its cone shows slow snowfall

I’m drinking in a bar I’ve got to leave at once
walk around the streets there might
be someone here I'll meet by chance

all events equal intense and true
happening parallel at once
a leaf a living stream of new
arriving particles in time

smoking in the cold behind my house at night
there’s something out there tonight
I stare into the dark snow-white

my girlfriend wants to talk driving home today
I wanna hear the news I say
Instead I’m really far away

all events equal intense and true
happening parallel at once
a leaf a living stream of new
arriving particles in time

should we stay longing
should we stay longing
should we sail around the world

all the stories they tell
going parallel
life, a synchronicity spell

all the silver that fell
spreading glimmer trails
a lifeline replacing itself
all the silver that fell
a living stream to tell

Have Your Say

I thought I quoted you as saying
you’re fine
a lie though
I thought you pressed me ‘cos I show
You know

I learned on some point of your soul, a mole
would be guarded
stirring up your
pretty garden
the time’s up, stop nodding

Have your say, have your say, darling
Speak out, you’ve got it
Have your say, have your say, darling
cut them, whatever
Raise your arms now, raise your arms now
Spreading all of you around
Point your laser, stay a stranger

You’ve been raised by different means, you say
fully harmonic
Instead I find you on your own
you should, all alone, in time confront
all that phony people
with their shiny leaks to see through
and what that means to you

Have your say, have your say, darling
Speak out, you’ve got it
Have your say, have your say, darling
cut them, whatever
Raise your arms now, raise your arms now
Spreading all of you around
Point your laser, stay a stranger

Today you say again
You’re fine
You are, I get it
about your angry voice
we start to laugh
together

Icarus

travelling goes on
for me
travelling goes on 'cos
I need to breathe
whatever I can reach now
could blow up
anytime
with a roar
in my mind

travelling goes on
lucky me
I stopped for too long here
to feel a thing
and I play my last card
it says leave the scene
the play that was part
of my way

everything here is done now
everything here is done
here is the key and I say goodbye to everyone
stay as you are and I'll come back
well I chose the stars
and they light my way down from the sun

wherever I look to
I see you
wherever you are
I’ll meet you goddess
and for all that you thought me
I have to grow, grow alone
you thought me

whatever I choose now
I got you still
You’re part of my being and you’re gonna be real
you are holding my hand
as I step
out into the sky
the sky the sky

Across Everything You Do

this scar
I face
seeing you
seems running
all through
from your moves
to the words
that you use
Across everything
you do

the distance you have gone
is resting upon
another mental sphere under this sun
that I never knew

I just was somewhere and too distracted
to see that deep branding I know
but believe me that
I’ve always cared every day
for you

at times you talk and then
you get off the track
and the tone of your voice gets thin
god, what have you seen

You try to leave this time
That's what I can see
Come on follow me
as far as you need

I just was somewhere and too distracted
to see that deep branding, I know
But I hope you can believe that I’m here in case you need me
I know you tried to tell and
no one was listening but
I’ve always cared for you

I just was somewhere and to distracted
to see that deep branding - I know
But I hope you can believe that I’m here in case you need me

whispering, shouting and
whispering, shouting
longing and craving and loving and fading
but still I want you to know that
I’ve always cared for you

Azul

I found you
I need
to have you now
quiet bliss and satisfied
entering a new room

A new hot zone
On common ground
And I go on
Before I walked in a circle
Now I feel like
stumbling ‘round in daylight

we breathe in
we’re breathing
we’re breathing all and all and in

the whole world
whatever it is
just hold on me, follow all
anesthetic needs
it shakes for us to set us free

I am willing, really, fully, ready and feeling
and we love each other, falling
on the way down to
a far away inner meltdown

blue waves are slightly shorter
life has now an order
that is why I met you
a blue phase appears to announce a star and
opens gates to far lands
within my body walls

and that kind of being
to pursue
a golden activity is
what I was always keen on
breathe in
before i go
we are gone
liberty
to pursue
a golden activity
what we need and what
we are breathing
before we go
we are gone

blue waves are slightly shorter
and life has now an order
that is why I met you
a blue phase appears to announce a star and
opens gates to far lands
within my body walls

In deep blue, first time that I saw you
Floating in a dream, though I felt
you far before
A blue phase initiates a star rise
Leading to far sites
deep enough to breathe

a swim-trough

Back and Forth

Is there anything
I should try to
ease the burning
from the inside

Is there anywhere
I could go
I’ve got to run away from
the inside glow

everything that I tried so far
wouldn’t help at all
every time that might get calm
my head goes like fireball

I’m trying to go back and forth
to go back and again
life is so wack
a hole in the morning
to go back and forth
to go back and again

Is there anyone I could go to
anyone that didn’t know you
is there any other site in this sad city
where somebody else is waiting
and every time that I might get calm
my head goes like a fireball

I’m trying to go back and forth
to go back and again
life is so wack
a hole in the morning
to go back and forth
to go back and again

I wake up once a night
Not knowing what this all is about
it's burning still inside and
you are still around

Play Again

a game
a game, that's all?
being placed
somewhere to start
a new turn
always waiting for a new turn

a hole where I have to choose a role, well
control over all names I’ve once chosen
the board ends, I place another token
and then I’ve got to start paying it again

every hunter tracks someone’s scent
but I can see trough to the darkening end
and everyone tracks someone’s scent
but I can still see through the darkening end

When I stumbled I could see the cause
Before I hit the ground
It was something that I recognized, that was put there by myself
And at that very moment before I fell I had to laugh, because I
Do believe in coincidence and this is unstable
now it’s lying all on the table
And I wont be playing again

Featherlike

The sun
Any second now
will rise, and its rays already dancing
On the waves out there
I know you long with me
For the same dark seas, and
all that is hiding within
still feeds you, reaches you, deep where I can feel you
somehow it is given
we’re alone and we’re driven
our shouldered daemon - so long

a new dawn
see all the colours come
and flow into the bay’s last shadows
the breakers golden covers
foam gives silhouettes that fading
in which our thoughts are gliding
everything on every frequency is blustering
still feeds you, reaches you, deep where I can feel you
did you ever think about
which moment s being memorized
its shape stays feather-like

either way though we have time to stay
We’re going to get blown away

see that black blur on the horizon
it’s a storm front’s rising
soon it will be dark the day gone we
have got to leave now, breath in
all the upcoming freedom
did you ever think about
which moment’s being memorized
its shape stays feather-like

either way though we still have time to stay
We’re going to get blown away

our wings are solid
‘cos the wind is calling
the waves come in mighty and strong

Anthropocene

raise the empowering sum
reversed one by one
build up a towering pile
entwining memories of time

Out in the dark things collide
Glitters
Reasons fading out of sight
The distance

Courses of rivers somehow
Keep changing
Glaciers are calving now
Calving now

Eyes wide open
in Sight
Anthropocene’s rising
A wing-stroke something
a breeze

A kind is alone
Performing its own
Play, yet unknown
Uncontrolled yet
Under evolution

Some words eroded from lore
Are being
one day washed ashore
With caution

There might be a reason
for a future transition
There might a reason
for an upcoming vision

There might be a reason
for a future transition
There is probably a reason
for an overriding vision

Sleep Tight

all I try to give you now
is an impression, an
open port somehow
to understand a frozen
presence now
you are here with me tonight
I hope it’s for the future
I hope you got the future on your side
until it all begins, 'till
it has been handed over, your own string
of a high up rattling kite
sleep tight

yet my spirit isn’t there
nor my limits I can feel now and then
I need to know you’re sleeping tight upstairs
I will give you all I got
Now I’ll hurry to get all open issues done
I’m still awake and waiting for the dawn

until it all begins, 'till
it has been handed over, your own string
of a high up rattling kite
sleep tight


Deep

I’m sinking deep, deep, deep towards the ground
That’s far to deep, deep, deep to be found
hidden from the sun
swallowed by the wild

Somewhere deep, deep down 
I hit the ground
In the deep, deep deep
I’ve finally found
covered by the sand
swallowed by the wild
The lost chest of time
Contains a scheme
Showing me

and slowly
here go the tears of this site
to the ceiling light
I just breathe and I suck them

there go my tears to the wild

I’m sinking deep, deep, deep towards the ground
That’s far to deep, deep, deep to be found
Cut off from the world
Entering the wild

it’s a
satellite being
out here and I let them fall, the
burntout parts, I can now drop them all
gliding through the darkness
down along the wall
there’s a point where nothing
ever ascends at all


and slowly
there go the tears of this site
to the ceiling light
I just breathe and I suck them

I wish to stay
I feel here so light

I’m sinking deep, deep, down into the dark

I’ve got a blue heart
that hovers down here
Its the twilight why it looks like
red again
I’ve got a blue heart
that hovers down here
I’ve got a blue heart
I’ve got a blue heart
I’ve got a blue heart
that hovers down here

 

Beijing Eye

Stop…dont wait for me
I got to go back,
just lost it on the way,
before, I think
it must be on the street somewhere
just right behind me
and it might still be alive
so I gotta go back and search my mind
you know it just escaped my memory
you know and it's worth it

I just lost that thinking
and I don’t know why
we just walked out that door of that bar called bejing eye
it all starts at moonlight
it all starts at moonlight
it flew straight out of that bar
into the world
into another world
into another world

like a swarm it spread out to discover new soil
came down as a new thought    
became truthful
and on a far side of everything we thought to know it
spread to new lands
or even to the future

sometimes thoughts swarm out to discover new solils
to new lands
or even to the future

That's the story of a thinking That suddenly died
it was found last night
lying on a dead man’s side
born at a remote site of a head one night
it started as a naked simple thinking
it was born because the head has being drinking
it couldn’t catch the words anymore
that flew around like birds, like cornered swallows in that narrow bar
and one of them decided to nest in that head
there it clashed with a thought was enriched with the years
and then led to point that it grew to large and left the host’s head
was transferred via thousand of heads and emerged and spread all over to the world

most thoughts got a rhyme
that tells the story of their time
but they age fast a bit like humans
they break and become rumors
all the time

The Rival

I guess you never tried to look me
straight in the eye you see
a reflec­tion of your thoughts in there
con­nected with your fraud
see what it looks like
see how you look like
I will never like you

I guess you’ll never try, you’ll better
stay out of my life forever
don’t stand in my way, you know
I give you this tip
so bet­ter go on
so bet­ter you fuck off
I will never like you

I guess it’s the right time to show
you fancy the same girl, I know
suc­cess is the first step to fail
because in my eyes
you’ve lost your face, you’ve lost your dignity
I will never like you

and if there was a pavement
that you walked along
and if there was a drive-by with me in the back of the car
and if I had a gun
and if I had a gun

could it be that every time we meet
you tense up and smile shy at me
And act as if noth­ing had hap­pened then
I tell you it did between you and me
you’re not my enemy
or nei­ther friend of me
I’ll just never like you

I can tell you’ll never dance again
in the place where I am stand­ing now
as I’ll never take yours instead
which used to be mine so
bet­ter go on
you bet­ter fuck off
I’ll never like you

I guess it’s the right time to show
you fancy the same girl I know
suc­cess is the first step to fail
because in my eyes
you’ve lost your face, you’ve lost your dignity
I’ll never like you

And if there was a pavement
Where you walked along
And if there was a drive-by with me in the back of the car
And if I had a gun
And if I had a gun

Clandestine

just Lis­ten please
I need to tell you this
please, it’s me

I’m sta­bi­lized
and I can face it now,
life and everything

it’s all fine with me
I’m quite happy now
It’s just…I mean…

my life thought me to tell you
about my dream…

the words that I wanna tell you
are very few but of a high complexity
please come back to me

I imag­ine every day
where it could start
to what it leads,
where it could be
your own way

just lis­ten please
I need to tell you this
please, it’s me

all that hap­pened past
and also time went fast
at least for me

I badly tried
for so many years
to make it disappear

the words that I wanna tell you
are very few but of high complexity
please come back to me

just lis­ten please
I need to tell you this
please, it’s me

it went clandestine
for so many years
but it was too big to disappear

Hungry Man

tasty oppor­tu­ni­ties
served by a world
that seems packed with them
god, im hungry
im a hun­gry man

some peo­ple
spend their time
to fight their own wars
on some tiny space
that’s not ours
what a waist, a place
where you been

I need a world that
brings the fire into my heart
I need the flames to rip it apart
It got to hurt a lot everyday

I wor­ship all the people
that have been gone
out of my life
but it goes on
well the time might be
on our side  

I’m trav­el­ling
all I had came to an end
I had the choice to move again
hun­gry as I am

I’m trav­el­ling
I stayed long but
I grew again
now I spend a new
day, hun­gry on my way

soon I might say that I need some more room
I’m sorry.. that’s because I’m hungry
I’m a hun­gry man

I guess
like to walk tall in the hot sun
ideas are burst­ing like popcorn
I like them sweet
melt­ing on my tongue

I like that
tasty stuff that’s hid­ing under the cream
shows its real shape once licked clean
a pure and reclaimed decision

there are so
many things
that need to be conquered
I’ve got the eyes of a corsair
spot­ting a loaded ves­sel afar  

I’m trav­el­ling
all I had came to an end
I had the choice to move again
hun­gry as I am

I’m trav­el­ling
I stayed long but
I grew again
now I spend a new
day, hun­gry on my way  

every­thing that’s hot inside pro­duces fume
that’s how I find my tar­get quite soon
the wind is paint­ing me with its bloom

hey man
I learned that unex­pect­edly
some­times a dish can be exceptional
when the ingre­di­ents prove to be
com­pat­i­ble, you see, that’s why                                                        

I’m trav­el­ling
I stayed long but
I grew again
now I spend a new
day, hun­gry on my way

Diamond or Seed

all of my life
I wondered why
the benefits of time
were always mine

and all of a sudden
life stretched me down and stretched me down again
and then again

and leave to me what I don’t know
and I just walk along the time
along the time

try to fill it with means that I can take it like it is
and I noticed you were the one
although I creep with my hands still feel ing numb
I know by now cross ing the swamp
there will be some thing to hold on

one day I will be walk ing on again
and with some luck I will obtain
a sec ond chance to get away
because apart from all the pain I feel
that part that’s still inside me
could be a dia mond or a seed

all of my life
I wondered why
the ben e fits of time
Were always mine

and all of a sudden
life turned around
and punched me in the face
my boy ish face

and left with out me
taking every sense, except
my sense of taste
a metal taste

and through my swollen eyes
I can see you disappear
and I noticed
you were the one

I can feel that something’s in my bloodstream
something’s still inside me
something’s still alive
and I feel something’s still inside my bloodstream
something’s still inside me
something’s still alive

Market

give me peace
and I’ll give you these
aren’t they what you want
I got the right keys
I tell you one thing
I put my part into the bargain

did you lie
on behalf of me
when I stole the part
that you want to be
when we started
being always on the market

could we design our brand new
and get it right through to the other side
despite this dark note
that’s writ­ten in our barcode

hey
I’m sit­ting here in your way
and I got some­thing to say
so why don’t you just stay
with me for a while and I tell you what

fin­ger draw­ings in the dust
show­ing rage
and a lack of trust
on all the car parks
we sign the paintings
of our mad hearts

there are thou­sands of feet
that cross the mall
while we’re sit­ting here
and sing a song for you  
a few stand still
and then they keep on walking

under the store is
a hid­den floor
cor­rupt walls
a back­door
where someone’s
wear­ing your name
sell­ing black mar­ket­ing games

hey
I’m sit­ting here in your way
and I got some­thing to say
why don’t you just stay
with me for a while and I tell you what

now
you know we’ve got
to
give you
these I will give you
and pass it on

if it’s still giv­ing meaning
if it’s still a com­mon seeing
I don’t care

I give you a part of me
with no future         

hey
I’m sit­ting here in your way
And I got some­thing to say

to you  
stop here sit down and try
to light
a fire
try!

Song For The Future

now I’ve got the time
to fin­ish an old rhyme
that wasn’t once enough
to express all that it was

I still can sing the song
and while I sing it comes
It meant to me a lot
but its mean­ing I forgot

as if it was a true spring
all over is your beauty
and we’re run­ning ‘round alive
you’re back now in my life

every every day I’m longing
all the years I longed for you
could never cope with what came true
feel­ing that soft pain
held by an old time
being an old man
and I still cry
feel­ing that soft pain
held by an old time
being an old man

I remem­ber how the dice
cir­cled slowly twice
I can recall that it matched
but not the mean­ing I attached

I still got the crown of maple
she wore the day I held her
right into the sun
soon after she was gone

you blurred out of my sight
and it took a while until you came back at night
I know you’re still alive

every every day I’m longing
all the years I longed for you
could never cope with what came true

all the time you were close to me
and dis­ap­peared then suddenly
so fast — we couldn’t even say goodbye

its true I had a ful­filled and happy life and I
had a few won­der­ful girls I liked but you
awoke me every night and weren’t there

feel­ing that soft pain
held by an old time
being an old man
and I still cry
feel­ing that soft pain
hold by an old time
being an old man

Amour Fou

I just couldn’t believe in
a sud­den freedom
that would over­whelm me
and it got me

I leaned back to the other side and
had another sip of wine and
threw the cig­a­rette away
and I said something

while
the room filled with people
not very vital
the kind of one still calls friends

but then I
saw you come in
and I thought you were stunning
from then on the night blurred away

I need you so bad
I can’t go on with­out you
I lost all I that knew
to an amour fou

It hit me so bad
I don’t even know what I go threw
I lost
all that knew     
to an amour fou

I need you so bad
I don’t even know where I am
until you call
I lost all I knew
to an amour fou

It hit me so bad
I can’t go on with­out you
I gave the world I knew
to an amour fou

I knew that there were stars
I knew even there were parts of them
but I never thought one could hit me anymore
there rather could be anything
In a fist full of partying
once opened
it’d be still nice
but then still fly away

but since we met that evening
I hardly couldn’t breath again
and all I see moves the way you move
in front of me

I just
never knew how this is
to acquire some­thing precious
you stepped in my life
and you stayed inside

Tides

you came with the tide
and you stayed for a while
and you changed me for life
when you went away
towards the ocean

when you left I kept this hunger
for all the secrets of that summer
I didn’t know you for a long time
though it felt like for­ever sunshine
you were right it was my lone choice
now I can hear you with my own voice
and I won­der where you could be now
stand­ing here fac­ing the sea

you took the tide…
and I won­der where you are now…

by and by I learned to hide it
and in my life you took a backseat
but on and off I need to flee to
a windy cor­ner with a wide view
because some­thing blew that has been held inside
caused a desire to set a cig­a­rette alight
and my breath does with the wind agree
floats on its ride towards the sea

It’s Time To Turn The Lights On

it was an easy job

to tie you up

you felt the wire

but you didn’t know

that you were in their

bondage at this time

 

it robed your time

it gave you sugar

took your name

given by your mother

this pro­gram that pro­tects you

from your­self

 

you became indeed

what you liked to be

so you accept the game

as it has to be

the excuse to nearly

every­thing you’re in

 

you decided to be a dick and

to ignore what you stick in

to ignore that this is shit on your tongue

 

remem­ber when you were sixteen

you knew what’s wrong, but not what their tricks mean

but now you know, what these moth­er­fuck­ers want

 

is it really you that lives the life that you do

from what you swore years ago, you never could

 

Is it really you that for­got about your history

and your once beau­ti­ful believes

 

is it really you whose eyes glew full of pas­sion once

now they look grey and like a fence

 

is it really you that lives the life that you do

a life like anyone

 

it’s almost noon and

it’s time turn the lights on

you’ll be sur­prised who else

you gonna see

 

you fol­low the west­ern paradox

that even among the underdogs

free­dom is what one’s actu­ally scared of

 

like a ghost you walk through life

and you think that you could hide from your kids

how you were when you really had a choice

but there is always a backdoor

Traffic

do you know where the traf­fic goes

that passes all the time out­side your window

don’t you feel like dri­ving a car there where all the lights have gone

that were taken by the road out in the dark

 

do you know where the traf­fic goes

that passes all the time out­side your window

don’t you feel alone

because you got nowhere to go

don’t you know that feeling

when you real­ize that being

could be more than you can see here by yourself

 

because you,

you got the gift

that you can see

the world’s sad­ness in its beauty

 

walk up the riverbank

watch­ing the dogs run and

snap at the sil­ver fluid

sparkling in the evening sun

 

and soon some­thing new will

turn to you                                      

 

this year we got a late fall

the birches are still yellow

and your heart

is dark­en­ing

but this time it will like you

this time it will come a new

real thing to be true

 

how end­less the highway

it seems to meet the sky for you

on either side

beau­ti­ful

every engine, every sequel 

sounds unequal

you will hear out­side your window

a car stop at the ser­vice lane

for you